Monday, January 27, 2014

Kisah Hati


Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

 - Alyah, Manusia Putih

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Shahrouk Bayani



Shahrouk Bayani, my brother's name..
He is 3 years younger than me.
Before he was born, my parents recited Surah Yusof so that when he grew up he would be as handsome as Prophet Yusof A.S.
My Dad named him Shahrouk Bayani because Dad said he wanted my brother to be Hero or King that makes a difference.
He was born 18 July 1994 and had jaundice. (Poor Mom had to breastfeed him every hour)
Mom said I was being mean to him when he was a baby.

He is annoying, timid boy.
He is an only son.
His life is about gaming.
He hates taking picture with his family because he thinks it's embarrassing.
He dislikes being in a committed relationship.
He never replied any of his girlfriends' texts.
He asked me to reply all her girlfriends smses.
To him, going out with a girl is a waste of time.
He is a sexist.
To him girls should handle domestic task.
He's thrifty yet stingy. (Not really, I used more than $100 of his money to shop)
He's a fussy eater(he doesn't eat internal organs like liver, heart, tongue, he dislikes siput, kerang, tempeh etc)
He told me once, he would never want to date any Chinese girls because he dislikes Chinese foods.
He dislikes keeping himself clean. There's one time he never shower for a week!
He's a fan of Newcastle United after seeing picture of lil him wearing NUFC jersey.

LOL, still my brother is an awesome boy.
He's a non-smoker
He doesn't drink.
He dislikes partying.
He is so gentle to our pets.
He respects girls. He never kiss, hug, touch girls (including his Exs)
He is good in Chemistry! He was 1st Normal Academic stream in his school and 1st in the whole ITE cohort of his course in CHEMISTRY!


He gave me money to buy After School, Orange Caramel albums.
He accompanied me to KPOP Heal The World because I want to see my favourite KPOP group After School.

He wore whatever his ex girlfriends gave him. For example: That shirt he's wearing is a gift from his favourite ex. LOL

Monday, January 20, 2014

Amenakin in Singapore

Amenakin was in Singapore. I went to her event held at the National Library on 11th January 2013. I was shocked because there's massive crowds in the Library's Drama Center at level 3.

There were like more than 400 ladies! The queue to the event was so long. The organiser didn't expect many would turn up to the event.

Sis Amenakin was so overwhelmed with the number of people attending to the event.

 This is what I wear for the Meet and Greet session with Amenakin.
Dark Brown Hoodie (gift from cousin)
Cotton On's Black Basic Shirt
Forever 21 Blue Denim Jeans
Vans Sk8- hi Shoes
Cowhide Leather Handbag (gift from Mom)
Mom's Shawl *I don't owe any shawls. I don't don headscarf*


Make up: 
Wardah Two Way Cake (bought it at Indonesia)
Bobbi Brown Blush (gift from cousin)
L'Oreal Lipstick (girft from cousin)
Eyeliiner and Eye pencil (Pasar Malam)
*I am just not meant to be good at make up*


Kak Shameem (my cousin), her daughter Zara, Amenakin and me. I was having a bad shawl day. 

After sending my cousin, I went to the toilet to fix my shawl and touch up my make up.
I saw the short queue hence I queued up to get in line so that I could take individual picture with Sis Amenakin.

I was the 2nd last lady to take picture with her. I was so excited to meet her in person. She is genuinely nice. She was hugging me many times and I was blushing madly because she' being too kind to me..

She and her husband looked so exhausted yet they were being kind by smiling, interacting with people around them. MasyaAllah. They are nice people.


I was so relieved that she was patiently communicating, interacting with her fans eventhough the low EQ event organiser was being so rude, impatient. 
If only the Amenakin meet and greet could have been better organised, bigger venue, more orderliness. Amena was so patient thru it all.


Source of the picture: Peachyopixx Facebook
I hope Sis Amenakin enjoyed her trip here in Singapore.

When I was waiting at the traffic lights near the library, Amenakin's husband who was inside a taxi saw me and he waved his hand. Then he nudged Sis Amena who was sitting beside him. She waved at me from a taxi and I gave her a flying heart.
The pedestrians around me give weird stares. Massive LOL.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

I want you to be back



This terrible aftermath…
After you left, my love page has stopped
Your empty spot in my heart makes my tears well up
What should I do? How could you not know like this?
All night I talk to myself again, I wish I could turn back time uh
I busily lose myself in work, meet up with friends so I have no time to think of you
I thought I was doing well without a chance to feel your empty spot
But what has happened? I think the words, “time heals all” is a lie
Why does it feel like only I am hurting all the time?
Aren’t you the same as me? Are you, by any chance, like me?
Why am I acting like a fool like this? I told myself to forget but I’m like this again
I wish I could turn back time, I wish I could turn back time.
If only I could turn back time, I wouldn’t lose you
On that rainy night, if I had held onto you
You would still be by my side – please come back, it’s too hard
I just endlessly cry, I just endlessly get sad
Every day after you left, I hate this pain of being left alone
I just keep endlessly crying, I keep endlessly getting sad
Every day after I loved you, I can’t sleep because of this terrible aftermath

Ze:A After Math